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Review Pilot Juice Gel-pens 0.5

Hey Everyone

for a while now I’ve been using the pilot juice pens and they are my go-to pen when I’m writing with something other than a fountain pen.

They don’t skip while writing. They come in different colors. They have a clip on top so you can clip them onto your papers. I have the 12 pen pack in 0.5 and I use them in my Bullet Journal which is a Leuchtturm 1917 in A5 size and there’s only a tiny ghosting barely visible. The silicone grip makes it really comfortable to write with and you have a secure hold of them.

I don’t regret one cent I spent on them.

Even thou I only have the 12 color set there are more on the market and I’m sure one will suit your taste. And you’re gonna LOVE that PEN!

Did you try out these amazing pens? Do you like them as much as I do? Let me know in the comments down below.

Love you
Rin _〆(。。)

Dear Chester Bennington

It’s been one week since you left our world. Today I want to tell you that your fans, your friends and your family misses you a lot. Even someone like me, who takes joy in listening to the music you created, is grieving.

I wouldn’t say that I am a fan but I really enjoy your music. The song “Castle of Glass” really got to me as well as “Breaking the Habit”, “Numb” and “Crawling”.  These are my most favorite. It’s really sad that I never got to see one of your Concerts … time never was right … what a stupid excuse.

One week ago you died and the world lost one of its amazing music artists. Even thou you’ll live on in your music it’s still never gonna be the same.

Today I want to thank you for your music, your hard work and for everything that you’ve done.

Thank you dear Chester Bennington.

Love
Rin _〆(。。)

Thank You P.C.Cast and Kristin Cast

Hey guys

shortly after getting my hair cut in June. I went again on 12th August and that’s how I left.

I had holidays from 25th July until 10th August and I have to admit I really needed it. It gave me strength to keep going because I was so extremely tiered of working and going to school. As you know I’m still a trainee and hopefully I’ll finish it next year in June with flying colors!

While on break I did what I haven’t been able to do lately and that was reading a really good book! I still had to finish my beloved series House of Night by P.C. Cast and Kristin Cast. I can’t believe she let ALL my favorite Characters DIE! Still I love the ending! Also I’m really happy that I bought it when I was in London (October 2010) and reading it in English, made me love this language even thou I hated it in the first place. My native language is German. That’s why I want to say Thank You P.C.Cast and Kristin Cast for opening my world to something that beautiful. Still I have to admit that out of all books I have read so far by P.C.Cast my most favorite book is Goddess of Spring.

If you wonder why I’m so madly in love with the author P.C.Cast it’s because while reading her books I can see the scene she’s writing about in front of my eyes. It makes me cry, really I cried at least once while reading, no matter which book it was! Especially when reading the goddess series. But also at the end of House of Night. It makes me laugh and sometime so hard that I cry! Really I can’t read her books in public because of it.

Now Kristin Cast also released a book called “Amber Smoke” and “Scarlet Rain” and I bought these two, to see if she’s able to do the crazy stuff her mother can do with me when I’m reading her books.

I’ll let you know later.

Rin o((*^▽^*))o

 

Twitter

Hey Guys

after deleting my Facebook account over a year ago.
I’m starting to use TWITTER as of today.

How come?

Well I was REALLY BORED at work and got nothing better to do than creating an account.
So if you want to be in direct contact with me then follow me @RinLovesRabbits

Yeah I sure do love rabbits and as you know I’ve got 2 sweet little bunnies jumping around in a 35m² apartment.

See you soon ❤

Rin o((*^▽^*))o

until the end – Bis zum Schluss

Hey Guys

I thought I could show you soemthing you don’t know… well at least I think.

Bis zum Schluss (until the end) a song from Silbermond. Silbermond  is a German band.

Refrain:
Vielleicht haben wir uns überschätzt
Gehofft das aus den Differenzen Liebe wächst
Doch ich weiß nicht ob das reicht
Wieviel Zeit uns noch bleibt
Es kommt wie es kommen muss
Doch wenn es sein muss, kämpf ich bis zum Schluss

Wir haben uns überschätzt
Wir haben gehofft das aus Differenzen noch Liebe wächst
Wir haben befürchtet das irgendwann alles kommt wie es muss
Und doch kämpfen wir Beide noch bis zum Schluss

Part 1
Keiner will die Konsequenzen tragen und das ist das Dilemma
So wird mit jedem Gespräch unsere Gnadenfrist verlängert
Und immer wieder beteuert das sich jetzt Vieles ändert
Immer wieder neue Versuche die dann im Alten enden
Denn nach der Zeit, sind die Rollen verteilt
Wir wollen die Muster ignorieren, doch sie explodieren bei der Kleinigkeit
Und das ist so ermüdend
Wir haben versucht zueinander zu finden, fanden jedoch nur das wir uns selbst belügen
Warscheinlich haben wir es von Anfang an schon gewusst
Wir sind zu verschieden, dass man für jeden Frieden erstmal kämpfen muss
Wie Paradox ist das?
Wobei doch eigentlich Liebe für mich die Zuflucht sein soll wo ich Waffen fallen lass

Refrain
Vielleicht haben wir uns überschätzt
Gehofft das aus den Differenzen Liebe wächst
Doch ich weiß nicht ob das reicht
Wieviel Zeit uns noch bleibt
Es kommt wie es kommen muss
Doch wenn es sein muss, kämpf ich bis zum Schluss

Part 2
Wir habens so oft schon zerredet, so oft vergebens
Versucht die Vergangenheit zu verändern um uns den Weg zu ebnen
Auf dem wir wachsen und leben können zu zweit
Als miteinander vereint, anstatt aneinander vorbei
Doch jeder Einzelne bricht an dem Anderen entzwei
Wir haben Beide das Gefühl in der Partnerschaft nicht wir selbst zu sein
Und wenn es weh tut warum tun wir es uns an?
Und wenn Glück hier drin nicht zu finden ist, wonach suchen wir dann?
Es macht mich krank das ich angeblich der bin, der die Schuld hat
Und gleichzeitig der bin, der die ganzen Lasten schultert
Angeblich der bin, der hier alles kaputt macht
Doch gleichzeitig der, der immer wieder zu dir kommt und alles gut macht
Ich frag mich ständig was ich ändern kann und änder dann
selbst Dinge die mir gut gefallen, einzig um dir zu gefallen
Ich weiß nicht weiter wie ich mich so verbiegen soll
Ich weiß nicht mehr wie ich ehrlich zu mir sein kann und dich lieben soll

Refrain
Vielleicht haben wir uns überschätzt
Gehofft das aus den Differenzen Liebe wächst
Doch ich weiß nicht ob das reicht
Wieviel Zeit uns noch bleibt
Es kommt wie es kommen muss
Doch wenn es sein muss, kämpf ich bis zum Schluss

Part 3
Und natürlich seh ich das Schöne und bisher überwiegt es
Gott weiß ich lieb dich und halt fest egal wie schwer die Kritik ist
Doch auch ich habe begrenzte Kräfte, es gleitet aus meinen Händen
Versuch meine Emotionen noch zu kontrollieren und verdrängen
Ich will Chancen geben, nochmal und nochmal wir haben es verdient
Es wär katastrophal im Streit und Affekt diesen Strich zu ziehen
Ich kann nicht mehr länger kämpfen, ich kann nich mehr länger stehen
Und ich kann nichts mehr für uns tun, wir 2 werden untergehen

Refrain
Vielleicht haben wir uns überschätzt
Gehofft das aus den Differenzen Liebe wächst
Doch ich weiß nicht ob das reicht
Wieviel Zeit uns noch bleibt
Es kommt wie es kommen muss
Doch wenn es sein muss, kämpf ich bis zum Schluss

Wir haben uns überschätzt
Wir haben gehofft das aus Differenzen noch Liebe wächst
Wie haben befürchtet das irgendwann alles kommt wie es muss
Und doch kämpfen wir Beide noch bis zum Schluß

English vision:

Refrain:
Propably we’ve overstimated us
hoped that out of differences love would grow
but I don’t know if it’s enough
How much time we have left
it will come how it has to be
But if it’s have to be I’ll fight until the end

We’ve overstimated us.
We still hoped that out of differences love would grow.
We were afraid that at some point it will come how it has to be
and still the both of us are fighting until the end.

Part 1:
Nobody wants to take responsibility and that’s the dilemma.
with every conversation our period of grace continuses
again and again the promise of change
again a chance that ends the same.
Because after time the parts are given.
We want to ignore the routine but it explodes with every little thing
it’s so tiring.
We tried to find a way to each other, but only to notice we’ve deceived oneself.
Maybe we knew it from the beginning
we’re too different that for every little peace a fight comes first.
How paradoxcial!
But love should be my place where I can lower my defence.

Refrain:
Propably we’ve overstimated us
hoped that out of differences love would grow
but I don’t know if it’s enough
How much time we have left
it will come how it has to be
But if it’s have to be I’ll fight until the end

Part 2:
We’ve disscued it so many times, so many times in vain.
Tried to cange the past to make a way,
where we can grow and live togehter.
United instead of just passing by one another
but every single one breaks the other one.
In this relatiionship we both feel out of balance
and if it hurts, why are we keep doing it?
And if we can’t find happiness, what are we looking for?
It makes me  insane that I’m the one at fault
and at the same time I’m the one who gets the burden.
I’m the one here who destroys our peace,
but at the same time I’m the one who comes back and fixes the pieces:
I’ve always asked what I can change and changed
even thinks I liked, only to be liked by you.
I don’t know anymore, how I should be.
I don’t know anymore, how I can be true and love you.

Refrain:
Propably we’ve overstimated us
hoped that out of differences love would grow
but I don’t know if it’s enough
How much time we have left
it will come how it has to be
But if it’s have to be I’ll fight until the end

Part 3
Sure I see the good times and until now it’s overweighting
god knows I love you and hold you close
but my strengh is limited, it glides out my hand.
I try to control my emotions and to hide
I want to give chances, again and again, we earned it.
A catastrophe would be to separate with an argument and in the heat of the moment.
I can’t fight any longer, I can’t stand anymore
and I can’t do anything, we’re going under.

Refrain:
Probably we’ve overestimated us
hoped that out of differences love would grow
but I don’t know if it’s enough
How much time we have left
it will come how it has to be
But if it’s have to be I’ll fight until the end

We’ve overestimated us.
We still hoped that out of differences love would grow.
We were afraid that at some point it will come how it has to be
and still the both of us are fighting until the end.

Rin Yamashita _〆(。。)

How I started to hate the 1st may

“In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life: it goes on.”
― Robert Frost

When I was 12 I had to learn on the hard way that the people I love won’t be there forever.
It was the 1st May 2003 when it happened. A normal day like always, that’s what I thought, well normal not exactly, because for once there was something going on in this little village, where I used to live. It’s really small only 350 people live there and everyone knows everyone. The buses don’t drive much and you mostly go by car. So this was the biggest event, besides the big fire the night before.
It was only 5 minutes from my home right next to the playground by the fire department.

So I went there and jumped on the bouncy castle. I had fun. I played with this girl, painted on the ground. When I think back I was happy. I don’t really had any problems. Not like now, where I have to think how I have to manage my money to survive. Or where I want to go with my life. I just lived like I wanted and didn’t care. I do now too, but it’s defiantly not that free spirit anymore like before. So at 3pm there was a mini playback show I would always watch and wish I could do this too, but never did. So afterwards I went home and my father told me to get some Bratwurst and I did like I’d been told.

I love my grandmother she would always have time for me and cuddle me.
She could knit. She would smile, when I came into the kitchen and say: “You’ll sleep your life away, when you sleep till midday.”

Than I came back with the food and gave her, her medicine she had to take and something didn’t felt right. So i told my father and he said that she didn’t want him to call the ambulance. I went back to her and talked to her. I think at that moment she couldn’t recognize me anymore. So I screamed at her and yelled to my father he had to call the ambulance. He wanted to listen to his mother I think because he was against it. Well that’s the part I don’t remember well. So I think my uncle and mother came in and someone had called the ambulance. I was obsessed with talking to my grandmother. Telling her not to leave me behind and to come back and to talk with me. I remember how my mother brought me upstairs in the livingroom and told me not to leave until she would come up.

Not to know what’s happening and see how slow the ambulance men were made me angry and  sad  at the same time. I had money for  one last sms on my mobile and I wrote my cousin that our grandmother is lying on her deathbed. I think she didn’t read it because she heart the  siren and I saw her at the end of the street falling to her knees. She knew something had happened.

My mother came up and had that look in her eyes telling me I don’t want to hear. She told me anyway and I started crying. I can’t remember how I went upstairs and I met with my cousin and my aunt. But I remember that the tree of us went into the garden which is behind our house.  We where there for a while I don’t know how long it has been. My aunt said it isn’t good for us to see the coffin.
To be honest, I saw the coffin. How they put it in the car. My aunt saw me looking and took me away.

I didn’t want to school afterwards. I skipped school for almost 2 weeks. People started to pity me. I hated it the most. My grandmother died and I wanted to be alone and to forget it but they wouldn’t let me. A long time after that I stared to be afraid to lose someone dear to me again so I became really devoted to my best friend. She was one of the view who smiled at me and I LOVED it. It was warm and friendly and there was no pity or sadness.

We are still best friends and try to keep in contact… even it isn’t easy!

Rin Yamashita _〆(。。)